Eto na naman po talaga tayo. I've always put up my guard coz yep I can't be blamed for that I guess. It's far easier to focus on things that you can control. If you want to study or would want to have that next job-- madali lang mag-apply ka lang, kumuha ng exam at magdasal na ibigay sayo. On the other hand yess kala mo seryoso e you can only control the extent of influence that people will have in your life. At first it'll be fun until all of these fuzzy shit load thoughts and feelings come into play. Funny how I read my previous post to put it bluntly my perspective then hahah was not to get into something that ain't serious. But tadaa few years down the road le new upgraded mindset is to enjoy, don't overthink or appear to be clingy, never talk about the 'future' and don't assume shit that just because that person shared something personal e.g. family matters or how he literally took 2 hrs of boat ride just to get himself schooled e you are special na. Oops that was a little bit of TMI na shit yet again. I think am handling it yes a little too well. But then as they say you can never be that prepared. So while the country is ablazed w/ who's filing their COC, what's next for Aldub, friends taking the bar e eto ka nagmumuni kung bakit hanggang ngayon mailap ang mga simpleng bagay na gusto mo-- tulad ng pagpasok sa gay bar, ang makapg two piece at ang mahalin at magmahal. Buti na lang nakapagpa bangs ka na at least may na cross - out ka na.
So what to do?
Go back again to the basics, to the things which again you have the control of. Tama na ha. At least kahit gaano ka saglit e naramdaman mo naman siguro na may mga bagay pala na kayang gawin at iparamdam sa yo ng ibang tao. Okay na yun aware ka naman sa sitwasyon dilat na dilat. Balik na lang tayo sa patuloy na pagtupad ng mga pangarap mo at makakita ng snow. At dun sa isa yess tiisin mo lang kaya mo naman sabi nga ng magaling mong kaibigan magka pride ka naman at babae ka, hindi ka bading hahaha.
E kung para sayo para naman din daw sayo di ba. At least tinry mo naman masasabi mong lageng di ka naman nagkulang so ok na ha. Itulog na lang naten to nang mahimbing. Malay mo bukas matanggap mo yung email na gusto mong mabasa at makapagsimula sa ibang lupain.